I want to be God

I am discovering that I am sick.  I have this very natural and insatiable desire to want to be the center of attention, to want praise, to want to be in a thousand places at once, to want people to know who I am and remember me long after I am gone, to want to be good at everything, to want power, to want people to think I am unusually gifted and brilliant.  And when I stop and look at these desires, it’s looks an awful lot like….well, I want to be God.

You know satan has a way of making sin look really cute….like it might hurt God’s feelings a little bit or something, but not actually get Him beaten and nailed to a cross like a piece of meat.  But God’s Word has a way of making sin look like it is: An attempt to dethrone God and take His place.  An attempt to BE GOD.  Let’s just do a BRIEF Biblical survey:  Satan was banished from God’s fellowship because he wanted to be God (Isaiah 14:12-14 Ezekiel 28:12-18, 1 Tim 3:6).  Eve took the fruit because she wanted wisdom and to “be like God” (Gen 3:5-6).  The tower of Babel was built because the people wanted “to make a name” for themselves (Gen 11:4).  And the greatest sin of all time, the murder of the Son of God, was committed by the people because they were ENVIOUS of who He was (Mark 15:10).  The First Commandment, The greatest commandment…..on and on we could go, but it is clear from the Scriptures that God is extremely passionate for His God-ness, and humanity is extremely passionate to try to steal/achieve that God-ness, though we never will (Isaiah 2:17).  Original sin taints and colors every sin, for all sin is saying to God, “I know better than You, and this is what I want to do, and I don’t care what You say…I should be in control anyway”.  Think about it in your own life.  Every sin says “I want to be God”.

So why am I writing this?  To ENCOURAGE you!  I have actually found it to be EXTREMELY LIBERATING in my own life to call sin what it is….An attempt to BE GOD.  Seeing sin this way has done some profound things in my life.  Here’s a few of them:

1.  It reminds me that sin isn’t cute, it’s an affront to God Himself and it’s spitting in the face of my Creator.  In other words….IT’S SERIOUS STUFF!

2.  It reminds me of how ridiculous sin is.  The fact that I actually question the authority of a God who is everywhere, all-knowing, and all-powerful, and say that I know better is….RIDICULOUS!!!

3.  It helps me to take myself less seriously.  I am a man.  I need sleep and food to operate.  I make mistakes.  I’m not good at everything.  And that’s ok.

4.  It helps me to humble myself before the Lord.  Being honest about sin is the first step in overcoming it.

5.  It helps me see the glory of the gospel.  Isn’t it really hard to love really arrogant people???  Think about being in God’s shoes for a day.  Can you imagine loving 7 billion pompous people who want to dethrone You?  Well God does.  He is THAT different.  He is THAT loving.

Writing that you may find the FREEDOM that exalting God brings-

Matt